The most heartbreaking thing
is when you decide to do something
that is the complete opposite of what you want.
It doesn’t matter if it’s the right thing to do
or if you’ll mess everything up
or if you’re rushing things.
You just know that it’s the best decision,
that it’s for the best.
Nobody is telling you to do so,
nobody is pressuring you,
it’s nobody’s fault and nobody triggered you.
Nobody needs to understand it,
it doesn’t have to be logical.
It can be the biggest mistake of your life,
but you’re going for it.
You just decide to break your heart,
so that you set yourself free,
so that you protect yourself,
so that for the first time in your life,
you put yourself first.