Is anybody out there?
Figures, I haven’t posted anything in FOREVER!
I haven’t posted in so long that I almost forgot I had a blog.
I did miss something, I just didn’t know what it was. And yesterday, when I had just too much time on my hands (a miracle happened) I was browsing through my tabs and I saw my blog. I opened it up and nostalgia hit me!
“Oh, look. I have a blog, that’s right. When was the last post?”
WHAT? WHEN? Oh, god…
I was ashamed. I knew I didn’t have time for my hobbies but this was simply too much!
I love my blog and I am proud of it and it was just unfair to leave my child like this (yes, I called my blog my child, get over yourself).
I have tons of ideas what to actually write.
It’s not like I am out of ideas.
It’s not like I don’t want to write anymore.
Writing is my drug and I love doing it more than anything in the world, but simply I was caught up in so many things that I forgot that I live, let alone that I have a blog.
In fact (I really don’t want to admit this but I will because I have to state this horror to myself as well) I haven’t done ANY writing (not only on my blog but any kind of writing) for such a long time that when I had to write a short story last week I forgot how to type fast and my keyboard felt foreign to me, as if I am typing for the first time.
You might find this funny, but you don’t understand…
MY KEYBOARD! My best friend, my buddy, my companion!
That was the moment I threw everything in the air and said:
“ENOUGH! YOU HAVE TO START WRITING AGAIN EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD TURNS UPSIDE DOWN!”
Also if you haven’t noticed I am very strict to myself when it comes to my goals and dreams and achievements and the things I love and unforgivably forget about them because I have to do stuff that I don’t want to do, just so that I can survive.
Ever been there?
Yes, good, so you get me, you feel me, you with me.
Thank you, it means a lot that you understand.
Long story short. I am BACK! And I am staying if I like it or not. I am not forcing myself to write. I love doing it, I just don’t have the time and let’s face it I NEED TO GET MY PRIORITIES STRAIGHT!
If you’ve read this, you deserve an applause, if I am writing this for me (Because I think everybody thinks I died or something, because who abandons their blog?!), I deserve a slap in the face so I start writing more.
(I haven’t written in so long that I forgot my outro.)
Shame, such shame…
Read with you later, Lara. ❤