This is a topic which has my head go like: I can’t be the only one right?
I am talking about a feeling I have right now. It’s not a bad feeling, it’s just weird.
I don’t even know how to describe it.
The thing is that I am having one of those weeks where I think that life is just going too fast. It’s not that I can’t handle it. But everything that is happening is happening in this strange sequence and I just don’t know what to do with all the information.
By now, you are probably lost!
Don’t worry, I am too.
It’s not the events around me that got me triggered. Not at all. It’s what’s happening inside of me. I feel this special kind of happiness that I remember only on rare occasions. It’s this overwhelming feeling that I can’t get rid of. It’s like I am excited about everything that I do and that even if I don’t do anything I always get something from it and I just learn SO MUCH!
I think what I am describing is “growing in life”. You know, like growing as a person and because it doesn’t happen to me so often (or usually it happens with a certain event that changes something in me) I think it’s confusing me.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not fighting the feeling.
A lot has happened to me in this year, good and bad, and I like it all. And I know that I have changed a lot this year (for the better I think) and I grew and learned stuff about me that I didn’t even know (sometimes I feel as if I met myself for the first time). I really found myself and generally became a better person, a person that I am really proud of and even though it has been a rocky year, I am happier than ever.
Still, I can’t understand, what I have to learn right now. I don’t know where these feelings are leading me because nothing special or out of the ordinary is happening to me so that I could say: yes, I will learn something from this.
I don’t know. I guess I just want to understand. Or I am just impatient to what Life will teach me here.
I just have this constant feeling that something BIG is coming. That something BIG will happen. And it’s not a bad thing. This feeling I have is warm and nice and I am not bothered by it, it just makes me wonder…
The end of the year is coming and I guess that everything is going even faster because of it.
I DON’T KNOW!
Like Life, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO TELL ME?
We will see I guess.
Sometimes I do wish that Life would just invite itself to a cup of tea, sit down with me and tell me what the hell is going on.
Now, here are some questions:
Is it just me?
Is this normal?
Am I being too impatient?
Am I psychic?
Can I predict my future?
I really don’t know. All I know is that everything I do and everything that I see teaches me something. Maybe I became more observant or something.
It doesn’t matter, it’s just weird!
I will stop now because this is getting way too philosophical…
And Life, if you ever have the time; text me, we’ll go out for a drink!
Read with you later, Lara. ❤