A letter to myself 2

Here we go again!

I did this last year and yesterday I read the letter. I was so overwhelmed by how amazing it turned out to be and how you can reflect on your year by writing yourself a letter.

Reading last year’s letter was an amazing experience for me. I cried, I laughed, I remembered a lot of things and the struggles I went through. And it turned out to be an amazing idea (probably the best I had in a really long time), so I decided to do it again.

I will write a letter to my 2019-self and again read it next year to see how my year has changed, how I’ve changed and how I’ve grown as a person.

(Psst! If you want to read the last year’s letter or my reply to that letter, click on the links. Come on! I know you want to read them!) 

Okay, here…it…GOES!

Dear Me,

hi. I have read your reply …

First of all, I just have to say how proud I am of you for achieving everything and for growing so much. Writing this is way easier than last year and I think it will be shorter too.

Right now I am sitting at the kitchen table, smiling while I write to you.

I know you already know all of these things, but GOSH I just can’t comprehend the year of 2017! I know it has been so hard and you said that it was the toughest year of your life, but you have to admit (by the happiness that I have right now) it was the best year ever!

Even though it was hard and at times it got a little too dark (as you said it, you can’t learn from the good things) it was a pretty amazing year. So much changed (and for the better too) that it is hard to acknowledge that a year only has 365 days.

I don’t know what to say to you, really.
You have made some amazing choices in 2017. I guess I will start here then.

With choices.

November and December were the toughest months in 2017 and I didn’t know exactly how I would handle them. While all of the bad things were happening good things started to come and a lot of good things were boiling up! Come to think of it … I don’t think I would change anything about those two months!

I have a new challenge and goal for this year! You have grown so much last year that this year you can calm down a bit. Focus on you and your dreams!

This is the year of ambitions and goal-achieving!

I still hope you will be able to work on your synchronicity and most of all (please, for everybody’s sake) can you start putting yourself FIRST!
I know you love the people who surround you and I know that you would give the world to them but you have to think about yourself as well, okay!
You have to be happy first and your life has to be the most important and everybody else comes after that!

I hope you can balance everything that goes around in your body and that you can keep the whole thing in sync. I know that I am still struggling with that a little, but I hope that you got a chance to listen to yourself and make yourself happy.

2018 was a big year for you, wasn’t it? I can only imagine the things that happened. If my plans will go correctly and you stick to the things you love and you still want to do them by now you would have to:

  • Finish your masters.
  • Have an amazing Summer.
  • Move back home in September and spend as much time as you can with your family.
  • Have everything finished (when it comes to planning) for New York.
  • Have a one-way ticket for New York.
  • Have moved to New York.

Wow, you are going to have one hell of a busy year!
But since you have accomplished so much last year I think you will manage this just fine!

I also hope that moving to New York will be the experience I want for Us and that it will be everything you wanted and more.
I do hope you find yourself and that you finally feel at home.

There are also other things I wish for you: like a lot of writing and photographing. I also wish you the best in love (if you know what I mean – I hope you still do).

In the end, again, it doesn’t matter if you accomplished anything from the list above or if you did anything I wished for you. I just want you to be happy. If you are as happy while reading this letter as I am right now, writing it, I think you have achieved the maximum goal. I know the politician joke cracked you up, but I was being serious.
If you, in any way, change what you want to do or if you get other dreams or find yourself doing whatever, just make sure you are happy and that you are always surrounded by the people who love you, motivate you, give you inspiration, support you and make you smile.
And make sure you make your choices for you, not for anybody else.

Just promise me that you won’t stay where you are and you will go out into the World and you will explore it and have adventures: on your own or with somebody else.

I love you kiddo and I am so proud of you,
write with you next year.

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